The Waltz – Review

A huge thank you to everyone who attended the opening of my exhibition The Waltz last week. The turnout was great and I was absolutely thrilled and humbled by the overwhelming positive response I received. For those who didn’t make it there are some installation photos below, but the show’s still on through until May 5th at Darbyshire Frame Makers. Open weekdays only, do let me know in advance if you plan to visit so I can either come and meet you there, or if that’s not possible, alert the chaps at Darbyshire to your imminent arrival.

I plan to begin putting a selection of the smaller works from the show up for sale on my online shop quite soon, which will be priced at £30 +P&P each. More info on that in due course…

Installation in progress.

Installation in progress.

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The Waltz. The complete set of 108 works installed.

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A selection of framed works.

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Completed installation view.

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The Waltz 2f (R12280) 2017 One from a series of 108 paintings in tempera, emulsion, acrylic & varnish on canvas 122.0 x 80.0cm (each)

With all faults.

With all faults

As some of you may be aware, my father passed away in October last year. He was 66. Needless to say, it has been very hard for my mother, my sister and me. I wrote a tribute to him, which I read at his funeral, and I can be quite affirmative in saying that doing so was helpful. It covered many aspects of his character and life. It was a private thing, meant for his family and friends, and I have no intention of repeating it all publicly here, but there is a part which is particularly relevant to the things I do choose to send into the world both virtually and physically, and it is this I wish to touch on now.

To say that my father was a great influence on me seems obvious, but still, the specifics are pertinent. He introduced me to painting – the pursuit I love most. The thing I work to build my life around. He gave me something that I will love and pursue forever. What more can a parent do for their child but to provide them with a source of lifelong joy? A joy that cannot be lost, nor even diminished. I can only hope I may be able to do similar for my daughter. In some way, everything I make now is in tribute, or in thanks to him whether I am conscious of it or not.

He was deeply intelligent, vastly knowledgeable, sharp, witty. One could possibly call him a polymath and whilst his modesty and self image would never have permitted him to accept such a label, his ego would have been quietly assured of its suitability. I have not inherited his ability to absorb information, but from him I have acquired a protective arrogance countering an insidious self doubt. Unshakable belief and deep fragility battle for supremacy, neither conscious of their mutual dependence and collaborative levelling of the whole, or the fragility of the structure they antagonistically fashion. We travel a narrow path, he and I. It can be treacherous at times, we have both had occasion to stumble, but have managed to self right, or be righted, and go on. I take comfort from this. Anyone may fail at any time. Most everyone will at some point. But, not everyone will get up, accept their failure and try again. It was in him to do this and I thank him for passing that on.

And it is these qualities we shared that form the foundation of my lasting tribute to him. He claimed as his own a phrase from the antiquarian book trade, the industry in which he worked for most of his life, to apply to himself – with all faults. In simple terms it means sold as seen, or that an item offered for sale is flawed, damaged or suchlike, and the prospective buyer ought to be aware that there are imperfections in advance of making a purchase. For dad though it meant ‘take me as you find me’. He was well aware of his own imperfections, but was able to accept them and face the world as he was. Latterly I have found it necessary to do similar, and his phrase, with all faults, is now inextricably linked to me too.

The statement stands alone, but I have also made my own addition. In connecting it with a second aphorism, are we found, it is read in a number of ways, all of which are valid:

With all faults are we found

With all faults are we found first refers directly to myself and my father. We were flawed in similar ways and have both strived to overcome the resultant problems.

It can also be read as a more wide ranging statement. It speaks of everyone. We all struggle with something, and are encountered as we are. Whether we choose to hide from or conceal these imperfections, or wear them openly, none of us are free of them. The statement is a universal truth. A leveller of sorts.

There is a third function of these words too: Here we are, warts and all, found with our faults, and that’s ok. The statement is a reminder that tolerance and acceptance are virtues to be pursued. It’s not always easy to be tolerant and it’s certainly difficult to be virtuous, but a reminder to be accepting of the bad you may perceive in others or yourself can help to leave you open to the possibility of seeing the good too.

These are the readings of the phrase in this format, however the statement can be reconfigured to appear as a question: are we found with all faults?.

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This is my question and a response to a conversation I had with my dad over the summer. As I have said, he and I suffered with certain similar problems. Particular details were uncannily alike. He feared that our problems were likely genetic – passed down the generations and inherently ours. Then again it would appear that they came to the surface as a result of a series of extreme events – during times of severe difficulty. I don’t know how much of it to attribute to one thing and how much to another. It’s a nature or nurture question, therefore I ask – Are we found with all faults? Or do we gather them over time? It’s an important question to me because it has a bearing on my future, but I am also very much aware that it is an unanswerable question and, ultimately, not one that would change our course of action if we did know the answer.

Finally, there is the aesthetic input behind my tribute. Since I first encountered it at the Hayward Gallery 15 years ago the work of Douglas Gordon has been a great influence on me. Not specifically in what I make as such – his art bears zero resemblance to my paintings! No, it’s something less tangible. The atmospheres he creates, the suggestions and ambiguities he presents, particularly through text, and specifically his focus on a duality of character – the ‘Caledonian Antisyzygy’ if you like (thanks to Brian Robertson of Zembla Gallery for introducing me to that phrase). I find it all utterly compelling. He has often worked in the medium of tattoo, inscribing phrases onto himself and others. We will usually encounter them in the form of photographs, and I don’t know for sure whether the documentation alone constitutes the artwork or if it is the tattoo itself, but I love the idea of the permanence and impermanence of the works – tattoos are considered permanent, and to get one is often a big decision, but people are inherently impermanent, so tattoo as art irrevocably changes the person involved, but cannot hold any of the physical value associations that a painting, sculpture, print or whatever does. These works will not be archived or restored. They won’t be present in a retrospective show in 2117. They exist only as long as the ‘wearer’ is alive. They both transcend and remain slave to their own physical manifestation.

Now, I certainly don’t claim my tattoos as art. They’re a tribute to my dad, a message, a reminder and all the other things I have discussed, but they are also a nod to Douglas Gordon (I hesitate to use the word homage – too loaded). I have appropriated his style, format and the font he most often uses for his text pieces. On a very basic level, I love the aesthetics, which if you’ve waded through any amount of what I’ve written you’ll know is important to me. Going a little deeper, I would like to think I have been able to achieve some of the ambiguity and outre atmosphere he employs to such great affect. I understand much of his work is personally profound. This is certainly true of my tattoos as you have just read. Overall I suppose that the phrasing and clearly the sentiment are very much inspired by and for my father, whilst the presentation was heavily influenced by Gordon.

To wrap this all up I will describe a theory of dad’s that I have always remembered. You could call it a partial parenting philosophy. He believed that children should experience deep wonder – joyful things that amaze them and thrill them and, critically, transcend their ability to comprehend. Children perceive magic. Innocence carries them over the grit and dirt of reality. Unburdened by rational thought, understanding of the how and why, free from the demand to grasp the mechanics of life they are receptive to awe and this is something dad believed that we, as adults and parents, must ensure is not wasted, for it does not last forever. We have the ability to create lifelong memories of pure joy for our children. I know this to be true, not just because I have such memories, but because he gave to me the ability to perceive wonder where one could reasonably argue there is none. Painting, in of itself, is not an amazing thing, but his influence has given me the ability to be amazed and awestruck and deeply, viscerally moved by it. I can’t say that he gave this to me, or taught it to me, or that there was any one activity that caused it. I supposed what I can say is that he saw it and nurtured it and encouraged it. He drew it out with openness and enthusiasm, passion, belief and indulgence and in doing so, helped to plot the course of my life in a positive direction.

Shop

Exciting news! I have just launched my new web shop, where you will be able to buy some of the new paintings I make. At present I have just the 2 works illustrated below for sale, both are in editions of 10 and are priced at £25 + P&P each. Please click here to visit the shop.

Shop paintings

New Paintings.

It felt really good, yeah we really had a good time. I 2016 Tempera & emulsion on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

It felt really good, yeah we really had a good time. I
2016
Tempera & emulsion on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

It felt really good, yeah we really had a good time. II 2016 Tempera & emulsion on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

It felt really good, yeah we really had a good time. II
2016
Tempera & emulsion on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

It felt really good, yeah we really had a good time. III 2016 Tempera & emulsion on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

It felt really good, yeah we really had a good time. III
2016
Tempera & emulsion on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

It felt really good, yeah we really had a good time. IV 2016 Tempera & emulsion on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

It felt really good, yeah we really had a good time. IV
2016
Tempera & emulsion on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

It felt really good, yeah we really had a good time. V 2016 Tempera & emulsion on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

It felt really good, yeah we really had a good time. V
2016
Tempera & emulsion on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

It felt really good, yeah we really had a good time. VI 2016 Tempera & emulsion on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

It felt really good, yeah we really had a good time. VI
2016
Tempera & emulsion on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

Refit for purpose.

I have been painting pretty much daily for about 3 months now and it is fulfilling and has moved swiftly. Without other distractions I have been able to concentrate on it far more keenly than ever before. With the irrelevant and mundane things that used to waste my time discarded I can focus and ideas flow freely, can be explored fully, and are executed in a manner which, more often than not, pleases me.

I inhabit a different world now. That which has come before has formed and informed what I make and the way I make it. I have the time and opportunity to evaluate and analyse why I make things the way I do. I have been making small, abstract paintings for about 4 years now and production has been vigourous. For more than a year before that I made very little and prior to that I made, generally speaking, a small number of large scale figurative paintings.

When I made the significant move to abstraction it was in order to ensure that I could enjoy painting. I wanted to indulge in the singular joy of applying paint and the work was designed purely to afford me this opportunity, and it worked. At that time I understood it to be a simple thing. I love painting. I was unable to do it to any satisfactory degree in the form I had previously pursued. I had no means to change my circumstances and therefore the thing I could change was my practice. I redesigned it to fit into my life, such as it was, and by doing so I could paint again. Quite simple. Now though, I see things a little differently, or at least, being able to stand away and look back at things with some sort of overview, I believe I can see more of what lead me to reshape my painting as I did.

The truth is, since early 2013 I have not enjoyed life. I was not happy, but, and this may sound odd, I wasn’t actually aware that I was that unhappy. I shan’t go into detail, but I was busy – excessively so. I didn’t have much time to think about things like happiness, or to paint. At least I managed to figure out a solution to the latter! So now I look back on my change of approach as a far more profound attempt to inject some little joy into my daily existence. I wanted an escape. An indulgence, a responsibility free pursuit that I could be assured would give me a little pleasure and honestly, it did offer me that. Now of course, things are vastly different. Day to day life just does not compare. I can confidently say that I am much, much happier. There’s a way to go of course, as is the case for most everyone I’d have thought, but the direction of travel is clear.

What intrigues me now, is how my painting will respond to this change. The form it has taken until this point has perhaps been protective. It has taken the shape of psychological refuge, offering that little bit of respite from difficulty, but now that I have been pulled free of that I feel it just beginning to move in a different direction. It has served its purpose in its current form and I am excited to see where next it will go. There are already some new questions I am beginning to ask of my practice. Something more I want it to provide for me and, I hope, for others. It’s exciting, and I welcome the potential complexity that I have hitherto consciously and quite vocally eschewed.

I don’t suppose this is the sort of post most people would put out as they try to promote their ‘business’ (yuck). It’s not what you’d call projecting a relentlessly positive or ‘on message’ image, but frankly I don’t care about that. One’s experiences shape and inform one’s practice. It would be easy to spin it all with a cheerful grin, but it would not be honest and it wouldn’t cast the things I make in the right light. For those of us blessed/cursed with the creative urge it can be the case that we don’t really know what we’ve made until sometime after we’ve made it. If it turns out that what we made isn’t actually what we thought it was, well, tough shit. Give it all greasy gloss, present it with a forced smile and toe the line you drew for yourself if you want, but I’d rather be straight about what’s really going on or, if it’s not clear what’s going on right now, at least give my best guess about what went on. And if my opinions change, or I realise i got something wrong I’ll say so, because if i can do that, I think I’ll have a much better chance of seeing and embracing whatever comes next.

New Paintings

If your clothes don't fit or need repairing (we can help). I 2016 Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don’t fit or need repairing (we can help). I
2016
Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

 

If your clothes don't fit or need repairing (we can help). II 2016 Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don’t fit or need repairing (we can help). II
2016
Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

 

If your clothes don't fit or need repairing (we can help). III 2016 Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don’t fit or need repairing (we can help). III
2016
Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don't fit or need repairing (we can help). IV 2016 Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don’t fit or need repairing (we can help). IV
2016
Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don't fit or need repairing (we can help). V 2016 Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don’t fit or need repairing (we can help). V
2016
Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don't fit or need repairing (we can help). VI 2016 Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don’t fit or need repairing (we can help). VI
2016
Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don't fit or need repairing (we can help). VII 2016 Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don’t fit or need repairing (we can help). VII
2016
Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don't fit or need repairing (we can help). VIII 2016 Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don’t fit or need repairing (we can help). VIII
2016
Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don't fit or need repairing (we can help). IX 2016 Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don’t fit or need repairing (we can help). IX
2016
Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don't fit or need repairing (we can help). X 2016 Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don’t fit or need repairing (we can help). X
2016
Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

Paper Cuts

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I will be showing the 8 paintings below at Kristian Day’s works on paper exhibition Paper Cuts at Transition Gallery, Hackney this Saturday, November 19th. It’s a one day event, but if you can’t make it there the works will also be available online soon.

for more information visit Kristian’s website

Transition Gallery can be found here:

Transition Gallery
Unit 25a (second floor)
Regent Studios
8 Andrews Road
London
E8 4QN

A foul bauble. I 2016 Ink, tempera, gloss & varnish on paper 25 X 30cm

A foul bauble. I
2016
Ink, tempera, gloss & varnish on paper
25 X 30cm

A foul bauble. II 2016 Ink, tempera & varnish on paper 30 X 25cm

A foul bauble. II
2016
Ink, tempera & varnish on paper
30 X 25cm

A foul bauble. III 2016 Ink, tempera, gloss & varnish on paper 30 X 30cm

A foul bauble. III
2016
Ink, tempera, gloss & varnish on paper
30 X 30cm

A foul bauble. IV 2016 Ink, tempera & varnish on paper 30 X 25cm

A foul bauble. IV
2016
Ink, tempera & varnish on paper
30 X 25cm

A foul bauble. V 2016 Ink, acrylic & varnish on paper 30 X 25cm

A foul bauble. V
2016
Ink, acrylic & varnish on paper
30 X 25cm

A foul bauble. VI 2016 Ink, acrylic & varnish on paper 30 X 25cm

A foul bauble. VI
2016
Ink, acrylic & varnish on paper
30 X 25cm

A foul bauble. VII 2016 Ink, tempera & varnish on paper 30 X 25cm

A foul bauble. VII
2016
Ink, tempera & varnish on paper
30 X 25cm

A foul bauble. VIII 2016 Ink, tempera & varnish on paper 25 X 30cm

A foul bauble. VIII
2016
Ink, tempera & varnish on paper
25 X 30cm

New paintings

If your clothes don't fit or need repairing (we can help). 2016 Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

If your clothes don’t fit or need repairing (we can help).
2016
Emulsion, tempera & glitter on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

 

Cigarette through polystyrene. 2016 Oil, gloss & emulsion on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

Cigarette through polystyrene.
2016
Oil, gloss & emulsion on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

 

A heavy session. 2016 Emulsion, tempera & gloss on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

A heavy session.
2016
Emulsion, tempera & gloss on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

 

So put your faith in modern steel. XIV 2016 Acrylic & tempera on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

So put your faith in modern steel. XIV
2016
Acrylic & tempera on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

Engine idle. 2016 Oil & gloss on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

Engine idle.
2016
Oil & gloss on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

Well do ya? X 2016 Oil, gloss & varnish on canvas 25.5 X 20.5cm

Well do ya? X
2016
Oil, gloss & varnish on canvas
25.5 X 20.5cm

Edge of town. III 2016 Oil, gloss & emulsion on canvas 31.0 X 25.9cm

Edge of town. III
2016
Oil, gloss & emulsion on canvas
31.0 X 25.9cm

So put your faith in modern steel. XV 2016 Acrylic & tempera on canvas 52.5 X 42.2cm

So put your faith in modern steel. XV
2016
Acrylic & tempera on canvas
52.5 X 42.2cm

I dug a hole in the garden. IV 2016 Oil, gloss & varnish on canvas 60.0 X 45.0cm

I dug a hole in the garden. IV
2016
Oil, gloss & varnish on canvas
60.0 X 45.0cm

I dug a hole in the garden. III 2016 Oil, gloss & varnish on canvas 60.0 X 45.0cm

I dug a hole in the garden. III
2016
Oil, gloss & varnish on canvas
60.0 X 45.0cm

I dug a hole in the garden. V 2016 Oil, gloss & emulsion on canvas 60.0 X 45.0cm

I dug a hole in the garden. V
2016
Oil, gloss & emulsion on canvas
60.0 X 45.0cm